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{December 30, 2007} Dear……………

Brenda,
Since I know you are reading, since I know you are stalking, and since I know you will tattle, I will say it all here. Especially since I am banned and cannot contact Leigh Ann properly. I also know that you are saying some horrible things about TM members on your private little board. Things that you run back and tell LA other people said. If anyone thinks I am two faced, they've obviously not spoken to you lately. Your little games ARE being noticed.

Leigh Ann,

One last time. Read, carefully, everything on this blog. Read the comments yourself instead of cowardly trusting Brenda at her word. No one said anything rotten about anyone on your board except of Brenda. We all said to you that we tried to get you to see what was really happening and you refused. Now I find out that you want to act on certain things but you have a "fear" of something else happening. You know what I say---Let it happen. Your board is much better off without her and you know it. Why you keep holding on to her I don't know. You keep claiming me as the problem and you keep listening to others tell you that I was the only problem you had. If the other night's debacle (oh yes, I know all about it, read it, saw it, all the way up to you cowardly deleting it) doesn't hint to you who the real problem is, then you two deserve each other in your misery.

At first, one could almost set their watch by how things went down on your board. First it was one particular poster, then another, then Brenda. These girls hit in the group of 3. Now, nothing has changed except that two of them are no longer on the board near as much as they once were and they no longer blindly follow Brenda. Instead, in their place, is another poster who is almost up Brenda's ass when she posts, it's comical. I mean, you are guarenteed a great conversation when those two show up. A whole lot of "ITA's" and back-patting go on between those two--at the expense of everyone else. Especially when they only post to hurt.

Your board really was a gem in the rough, LA, when you first started it. And you started it with such a strong vision-- to right the wrongs placed upon so many of us by another board. You and I used to have an open line of communication that I really did enjoy being on the receiving end of. I listened to every single word you spoke to me and followed through on every single request you made of me. I respected you and what you did.

I know that there are some who are reading this now, from your board. Don't worry, I'm not out to "steal" anyone from you and I'm certainly not out to beg for me to be allowed to come back--that is simply not going to happen ever again. Those that have posted comments on my pages speak the truth. You should listen to them if not me. Well, wait--I know you aren't listening to me, so listen to them. You've been told, repeatedly, that this would happen. You chose not to listen. Will you now?

BUT, the ladies on that board need to know the truth. The truth which Brenda is NOT telling and the truth in which you choose to ignore. They haven't the foggiest what is going on behind the scenes and think that some are the trouble makers you tell them, when that simply isn't the truth and you know it. They need to know that I was banned because Brenda came here TO MY PRIVATE BLOG and copied my posts to you and tattled. They need to know that if you did choose to come here and read this for yourself, you also chose to listen to her and banned me rather than find out the truth.

That my blog is on a public space and that I've posted a link to said blog on your board (for the express purpose of showing pictures off, so as to be respectful to YOUR bandwidth), has not a whit to do with it. You shouldn't be worried about people leaving to go to Brenda's site because there are some who already are leaving, but not to go to her site. They are leaving that board because of her, and her alone.

I've been nothing but real on your board. I've never posted anonymously--I think it cowardice. I've never played "name games" (remember the biker chick incident, the one in which YOU pretended to be me and posted anon, and let the whole board think it was me?), I've never hidden and I've never lied. Everything I've said on here, negative or not has been the truth and you know it.

And let's be clear, the only time I've said anything bad about YOU, is when you banned me. Now, game on. I don't have anything to hide and I'm certainly a lot freer now that I don't have to "watch my mouth" around anyone. I won't play legalistic games with anyone and I certainly won't be censored.

Censorship rots. Legalism is wrong. My blog is my blog. I say what I want, when I want.

But, believe it or not, I really don't want to publish this. I would have much preferred some to just "man up" to the truth. And honestly, this is taking up too much head space, space they aren't paying rent for. But, things are getting back to me that just are not true and they need to be corrected.

And no, no one that has posted a comment on this blog has told me anything. I have my ways of finding things out without having to rely on people tattling to me. Trust me on that one.

I am not going to hurt you or anyone else, so don't feel threatned by me. I am not going to "steal" your board from you (how absurd that thought is!) and I don't "want back" and I'm certainly not crying that you banned me. It's been an uplifting and freeing experience.

Now stop your games and tell Brenda to stop hers. I'll go away when she does.

~~Toni

{December 28, 2007} Just some Christmas Mayhem…

Because you know I don't like to dissappoint all two of my fans.

My Princess-Brat-in-Training, who is like a total Invader Zim fan:

Since we found out what her allergies were and that meant losing her beloved Snowy the Guinea Pig, Gramma made her Christmas by purchasing her tank set up for us to receive the Mutant Ninja Turtles. Yes, she plans on naming them after the TMNT dudes. Told you she's strange.

She literally died, cried, and went to heaven. I think they were able to hear the screech in Georgia.

And here she is--my Guitar Hero. I swear she's already mastered most of the easy stuff. I gave up after a few notes.

My Sister, the Gabester and The Princess-Brat-in-Training. OH, BTW, I'M GOING TO BE AN AUNTIE AGAIN!! YIPPEEE!! Total spoilage.

THE DUDE, The Cool Rider, The Gabester. Rock On with your Bad self!

I made this for my sister. It's out of sculpey clay.

Last year, I made this one for my Mom.

She's also got two more that I made for her and my dad.

I on yur blog wif sum talentz. :)~~

This, this fucker is STALKING ME! He won't leave my back porch. Damn it man. First the snake, the skunk, the owl, and now this? Grrrrrrrr.

~~Me

{December 25, 2007} Santa has left the building…

And according to NASA and www.noradsanta.com, he's just left: Current location: Fort George, Quebec, Canada. And is now on his way to: Current location: Labrador City, Newfoundland , Canada.

He hit most of the Eastern Half of the States, including Florida.

And he left this for us:

Slim pickings this year, but hey--they are older so the stuff gets bigger.

In any case, Merry Christmas to all and see you all soon!

~Me

{December 24, 2007} Merry ChrisHanuKwanFestiSolstiMas!

Nope.. I"m using the rich text editor instead of the regular and I tried embedding the code, it shows when I go to "visual" but not when I post. I see nothing "yellow" except for the smiley faces. No "a" or "v" or anything like that.

Grrr.... oh well.

Andrea?

In any case.. Merry Christmas

~~Me

{December 23, 2007} Hey Leigh Ann…

Do you get it yet? Another one has asked to have her name deleted from the board and is leaving.

Do you get it yet?

Doubtful. So here, let me explain...

SHE'S LEAVING BECAUSE OF BRENDA!!

Loud enough for you? When are you going to learn that *I* was never the problem? When are you going to learn just who is? When you don't have a board? As long as you keep Brenda on that board, people are going to leave.

She is an egotistical, self-righteous, bible-thumping bigot, who spends her time telling everyone she knows best.

Take the hint from the WTM boards, they banned her too!! And you know why? Because she tried to pull her shit there and no one took it or allowed it! SWB has more balls than you. Go figure.

And I'm the one banned.

Karma, baby. It's a bitch and she's biting you now.

**edit: I am putting this here, on the front page, rather than comments, because it NEEDS to be seen. Leigh Ann, pay attention, if you can afford it.

Bonnie Says:

It took me several weeks to get her to take my name off. I didn’t want to be associated with that bunch. As you say, there are a few sweet folks over there but as a whole they’re nuts.

And since they are obviously coming here to read, I hope you won’t mind me using your space a bit.

Leigh Ann–or whoever you have reading TONI’S PERSONAL SPACE HERE–Brenda is a stalker, a liar, and a fink. She has used the bmail function at TM to spread lies, talk trash about you, and stalk others. Folks have tried to warn you about her for YEARS and you choose to take her side. Does she provide you with some curriculum help for free or something? Because that’s the only reason–albeit a lame reason–that I can think of for you constantly kissing her butt. You will never know the crap Brenda tried to get away with when I was one of the temporary moderators for you when you were on vacation once. You will never know because you refuse to believe. You, Brenda, and many others have told lies about the folks you’ve banned. Toni is sooo much better off without you and your board.

I luvs ya, Toni…with the true love of Christ.

Bonnie

You really need to listen to your former constituency. It is NOT me, or us. It is all Brenda and she is doing it right now, right this very minute, and yet, you continue to let her.

Wow. I sure hope that you are NOT taking anything from Brenda to put up with her shit. Otherwise, your "christian" walk will be tainted.

***And Brenda, since I know you are reading--congratulations on proving Bonnie's point entirely by going over to WTM to "prove" to me you can still post. Here's a cookie for you.

Leigh Ann, since I know you are still reading, would you like me to bring you some Starbucks so that you can wake up and smell the imposter? And if you are going to tattle on me to other board members--get your facts straight. I never once mentioned your name on my blog until now. Ever. But, I suppose if the shoe fits.

Seriously, do try to enjoy your holiday. I know it is tough on everyone. But this little game being played is quite pathetic actually. Fun, but pathetic. And sad. Yes, quite a bit of sad.

~~Toni

{December 22, 2007} i’ve been banned… Cowards.

The whole lot of them. Yes, you are cowards. You are sitting there behind the anonymity of your computer pretending your Faith is strong and thinking you've done something for your Christian Friends by banning the "heathen".

All you've done is succeeded in proving my point--you are cowards. Legalistic, bible thumping cowards. You think your faith is strong, but if you have to ban someone who has a differing opinion than yours, your faith is weak. Very weak.

You allow someone like Brenda--the biggest and worst offender on that board--to rip open and apart decent women (yes, there are a few on that board) and you allow her to run that board with her short-sighted, holier than thou, attitude and you never once do a damn thing about it. You've been complained to by more people about HER than you have about me. I know this for a fact, Leigh Ann. Those who've complained about me have all been Brenda supporters. I've got more people on that board who like me than who dislike me.

With the exception of a very few on that board, the rest of them are weak faithed, bible thumping and moronic. And I don't care who knows this. You've made the wrong enemy out of me. And you've banned the wrong person.

Enjoy your bubble. I hope those that are still on there, those that are decent, take a cue from the rest of us who have left(or been banned because we disagree) and grow and backbone and leave themselves. That board is not worth it. Their prayers are empty, their faith weak and their love and "kindness" hollow.

To anyone who hasn't a clue what I am saying, let's just say that my rant below got me banned. This is a board that allows bashing of anyone who doesn't agree with their political preferences, openly calls one very nice lady (who happens to be muslim) a terrorist, will tell anyone who will listen that if you don't believe in their brand of Christianity, you are wrong; this is also the same board where the owner has banned words like "OMG" and "mygod" as offensive to their faith (if they had a strong faith, they would be able to handle it).

There is so much more to this. I've been on that board long enough and I should have listened to my friend when I was told. I've been banned and I'm sure it is permanent, for which I am perfectly fine with. I am also perfectly fine with sitting back and watching their little bubble burst.

There is no God. Period. If there ever was, people like this would not exist. I am renouncing my "belief" as of right now because it is just not worth it to be lumped into the same catagory as these idiots.

I LOVE my life.
I LOVE how I homeschool.
I LOVE my intelligent, funny, open-minded, not-bigoted or racist children.
I LOVE the fact that one day, my children will grow up to happy, successful and well rounded instead of cookie cut, close-minded, hate filled, boxed in, individuals.

You all doubted my faith because it wasn't like yours. You all doubted my faith because I disagreed with you on nearly everything your legalistic minds could speak. I HAD faith at one time. I really and truly did. Now I realize that it was empty, it wasn't worth all of the pain and suffering I've been through the last few years, "in the name of Christ".

To those whom I've ever communicated with off the boards via bmail--I meant every single word I've ever said to you. I meant the "I respect you", the "I do care about you", the "I really do not mean you". I meant everything I've said. If you feel I've lied to you, then I am very sorry you feel that way, but I was not lying. I meant it then and I STILL mean it. You KNOW who you are. I won't name names. You know who you are because I am closer to you than anyone else. And if you know me half as well as you claim, then you will know that this is it. This is the last straw. I am done with what I have had to put up with on that board. I am done with the "do it one way, do it another" for different people.

If you want to talk to me, you know how to get ahold of me. If you don't, your loss.

~~Toni

{December 21, 2007} Family Is.

A mom and a dad.
A mom and her mom and dad.
A mom and her mom.
A mom and her dad.
A mom and just her kids.

A Dad and a mom.
A Dad and his mom and dad.
A Dad and his mom.
A dad and his dad.
A Dad and just his kids.

They are also gay, lesbian, interracial, unwed and pregnant, single and adopting, your best friend and you, your Aunt/Uncle/Cousin.

The point is a Family is WHATEVER you feel a family is. Does not matter whether kids are involved, does not matter what goes on in your bedroom and it certainly does not matter whether you are married or not. Family is family, period.

Coming from some who like to exclaim "babies are a blessing from God", they sure have a lot of "but only if's" attached to that.

Screw that you Psuedo Christian Morons. Family is family. Period. I don't care if you are an unwed 21 yr old woman who finds herself pregnant, that baby should be welcome no matter HOW it got there. There should be ZERO strings attached to this. And then to turn around and justify this by saying that the only way a child will have a decent life is if they have a mother AND a father?

Fuck you. Plain and Simple. Having that dick in their lives (pun intended) does NOT make your family better than mine. In fact, I'd put my unwed and pregnant at 18 AND 24/ fatherless/ raised by ME children up against your bible thumping/legalistic/pathetic excuse for a life any day and I'd fucking WIN.

How sad that this poor child has already been stigmatized and labeled and it isn't even born yet. But what's even sadder still is that this same person insists that my children were better off adopted than being raised in a loving, fiercly loyal and strong household made up of me, my mom and my step-father. My girls are both very strong, very independant, and very secure. They now have that "dick" in their lives, but even though I love him to death, I still did it for 10+ years before he showed up and I could do it again.

Oh, I forgot the best part. Trying to prove her point by saying statistics show that domestic abuse occurs more frequently in non-married couples (when statistics prove this otherwise) and trying to say that this is a good reason why a man and woman should be married and why her point is better than mine. Whatever.

Addendum: And furthermore, if Lisa Welchel can do it, (she supports Jamie Lynn Spears the way a Mother SHOULD), and she's a devout Christian Homeschooler, who has written 12 CHRISTIAN books; WHY CAN'T YOU?????

So again, Fuck you and have a Merry Fucking Yule Log burning, Egg Nog drinking, Un-Christmas!!

~~Toni

(who's so fucking pissed right now, she can't type).

{December 17, 2007} A few Random, inconsequential, and definitely controversial, thoughts…

Firstly, I don't like Huckabee. I don't like Romney. I don't like Gulliani. I don't like Obama. In, fact, I don't like ANY candidate running for the soon-to-be current election. But, I will most probably vote for that evil-people think she's a lesbian-husband banged his secretary- Hillary Clinton. Let's face facts, she was already President when her husband ran the country, so let's just make it official already.

But the beauty of this thought is that there are now a core group of homeschoolers calling in to question everyone else's faith and homeschooling abilities because we don't support Huckabee. Yep, there are now a group of blogging and non-blogging homeschoolers who are advertising that "Homeschoolers support Huckabee". Even some news outlets have joined in chiming this.

The real news flash is, though, that not all homeschoolers support him. Not even with someone else's life would I support him. Funnily enough, when this man was Governor, he wrote a bill that denounced and further restricted homeschooling, in his state. Yet, this guy now claims and is supported by, the very homeschoolers he once tried to control.

Way to go, you overzealous, moronicly righteously religous freaks--vote in a guy to rule this country who once loathed us. In fact, he probably still does. But he isn't talking.

Secondly, in reading a few blogs posted on some message board, one blog had something on it that gravely disturbed me. You see, we've already got one moron as a President, but what's worse is that this moron sent us to a war that should have never occurred. However, on this blog is a "ticker" (you've seen those nauseatingly nasty ones announcing "This many days until I pop my brat out") that states, and I quote: "Since the start of the Iraq war, 6,146,675 children have died from ABORTION". Umm, HELLO? What the fuck about the guys fighting this stupid, senseless war who are now dead themselves? Or about their children, who are now mother/fatherless? You post a ticker advertising your ignorance about this damn war and claim that abortion is worse than it? Sadly, you also voted for the moron who brought this war on and you are likely to vote for another religiously stupid, mindlessly zombified, bible thumping cretin, to take his place.

I fear for our country.

Thirdly, here is a link to something that is equally as scary as the above: I told you Mike Farris and HSLDA were NOT to be trusted. Ahh, run. This is scary, scary stuff. There is nothing that HSLDA can do that my paying a damn good lawyer can't. In fact, HSLDA is quite useless because they don't handle the most needed cases--divorce. Not that they should be divorce lawyers, but that they don't help out the mother on the receiving end of the divorce, who may still want to homeschool her brood, because it's a "domestic issue". Now, DumbassFarris wants to run for Education Secretary. Does anyone not see the irony of this?

I really fear for our country now.

Fourthly, Ann Coulter is a douchebag. Those who support her or listen to her or believe her or think she "Rocks" are just as big of morons as our current President. Ann Coulter is nothing but the most bigoted, hate filled, woman hating, moron I've ever had the "pleasure" of reading. But of course, I expect nothing less than this from the same people who actually get offended when someone utters "mygod". Douchebags.

I think I'd become really crazy if Ann Coulter ever ran for President.

Yeah, I am burning bridges. I like fire. I'm a pyro at heart, afterall. So burn away. Oh, wait--here, I have more fuel to add to this flame-- those morons who've got to question whether "Good Christians" should be playing with Playmobil's "Romans and Gladiators" set, please line up and take a bullet for your people. You don't deserve to be breeding if you have to ask about something so stupid as a playset. Her reasoning was that she "understood how Christians suffered at the hands of the Gladiators, so should she be allowing her child to play with this set, knowing all the pain and suffereing they went through".

Like, gag me. I've become jaded. And, I like it. I'm bringing ME back (as opposed to sexy, cuz that's something I'm not).

(This post was brought to you by the words "Omg", "OMGosh", "OHGOD", "Jeebus", and "Fuck You".)

~~Toni

{December 14, 2007} My (not so) Poor FrankenBaxterpuppy

"Why Mommy? Why?"

"Ha! See what I do when you leave me alone?"

I swear we do not pose this dog. He's got a mind of his own.

~~Toni

{December 09, 2007} Busch Gardens–**WARNING: Picture Intensive**

So we went to Busch Gardens Friday for Physics Day and it was packed. BUT, the kids had fun. Lots of cool things they got to do and see. For family, here are ALL of the photos I took. Enjoy. You want any, right click and save as.

The Kids--Jacob, Brittany, Chyene, and my nephew Chris